In sickness and in health....
Yes, those are the words I spoke so very long ago. The understanding of their meaning so far from the moment. Yet...I spoke them anyway! If given the chance to do it again I would say them with greater understanding....because I love him so very much!
He has served me in sickness far more than I have ever had the honor of loving him through his. Mine...1 para sail accident, 9 babies, 1 skin cancer and reconstruction and 1 very glad it's gone gallbladder! He...my husband,friend, love of my life never complained....just served and loved me to health!
Ephesians 5:25-27
New King James Version (NKJV)
25 Husbands, love your wives, just as Christ also loved the church and gave Himself for her, 26 that He might sanctify and cleanse her with the washing of water by the word, 27 that He might present her to Himself a glorious church, not having spot or wrinkle or any such thing, but that she should be holy and without blemish.
You never really understand how much you love someone until they are unable to be their good ole healthy selves. Yesterday's two hour surgery to repair torn tendons has rocked my self-centered world. It's my nature to want to fix whatever might be broken or hurt. These next several weeks may be harder on him than me...but I hurt. I hurt watching him hurt. I hurt watching him get frustrated at the lack of being mobile. I hurt at watching God get him to a place of stillness. I'm overjoyed at what God might be up too! I smile at the end result and the beginning of a new journey as we are squeezed and molded by the inconvenience of this part of the journey. Time will tell. Will tell if we heed His calling and obey. If we are still and tune our ears to his voice. Surrendering all that we are and ever hope to be. Only to be His child and do His will.
And in six weeks...we do this all over again! Another surgery...same foot! My oh my...My God is good and greatly to be praised! Praising Him for a great place of employment with great sick leave and all this time I will have with the man that I promised to love and serve through this sickness!
As we have so many times before....One day we will look back on this time and smile. Smiling at the hand of our great Father who loves us so much and works everything out for our good!
You never really understand how much you love someone until they are unable to be their good ole healthy selves. Yesterday's two hour surgery to repair torn tendons has rocked my self-centered world. It's my nature to want to fix whatever might be broken or hurt. These next several weeks may be harder on him than me...but I hurt. I hurt watching him hurt. I hurt watching him get frustrated at the lack of being mobile. I hurt at watching God get him to a place of stillness. I'm overjoyed at what God might be up too! I smile at the end result and the beginning of a new journey as we are squeezed and molded by the inconvenience of this part of the journey. Time will tell. Will tell if we heed His calling and obey. If we are still and tune our ears to his voice. Surrendering all that we are and ever hope to be. Only to be His child and do His will.
And in six weeks...we do this all over again! Another surgery...same foot! My oh my...My God is good and greatly to be praised! Praising Him for a great place of employment with great sick leave and all this time I will have with the man that I promised to love and serve through this sickness!
As we have so many times before....One day we will look back on this time and smile. Smiling at the hand of our great Father who loves us so much and works everything out for our good!
